Currently Listening FutureSex / LoveSounds By Justin Timberlake -> what goes around comes around <- see related

wow this week went by really fast.

tuesday i seen chris at the basketball game. he's such a cutie!!!!

oh, so guess who had the nerve to show up at the game? anthony with his new slutbag girlfriend erika. what a fag. i know he seen me kiss chris goodnight and i'm pretty sure he got irritated cause he was sulking around and just walked off. what a douchebag.

so i worked monday, tuesday, and today. i actually had fun at work today.

so this weekend...three dates!!! tomorrow night is either movies with chris, or hanging out with bryan.

then saturday, some date with a friend of alyse's new boy toy during the day, then saturday night is movie night at keith's house and i invited bryan to come. he might be going up north, though so i don't know for sure.

damn i am big pimping haha.

alright well it's time for bed cause i am mother freaking tired. besides, chris is probably call me when he gets off work and last time we talked on the phone, we were up til 1:30 in the morning!

have a good weekend loves!!! <333

Currently Listening Controversy Loves Company By The Audition -> you've made us concsious <- see related

oh boy <333

So this weekend was by far the best one i have had in i don't know how long!!!

Let's see, Friday I went after school to Alyse's house and we hung out and got ready for our hot dates! and hell yes they were hottttt!!! mine was bryan and her's was ryan. they were very cute, kind of country boys, gentlemen. we went to the movies and seen turistas (which was disgusting, by the way) and then we went to pete's garage and played pool. it was a lot of fun.

Alright so now for Saturday...we got up and got ready and that's when the fun began. alyse got online and started talking to an old friend of hers, chris. somehow they got on the subject of me and chris was asking if he had ever met me, blah blah...and alyse ended up giving him my number!!!! well, we left and went shopping and did some errands with her grandma and the whole time, me and him were texting back and forth. we were just asking eachother questions, you know. he texted alyse a little later and asked her if we wanted to meet up with him and some of his friends at the grind (a little coffee shop in wyandotte). so we went and got alyse's boy keith and then went up there. let me tell you, chris is a cutie! oh my goodness...perfect!

well, we were all sitting around talking and he just randomly asks me to go for a walk with him. so i said ok and we went outside and walked around the park. he was so cute and very gentleman-like (if that's a word even?!) he asked me about myself and i asked him about himself, yada yada. well we go back to the grind (cause it was crazy cold) and then his friends decide they are going to the mall. so me, alyse, and keith decided to go, too. me and chris walked around the mall and just talked a little more, but then his friends said they had to leave to go meet someone's mom. he was bummed cause he wanted to talk to me, but he said that he would call me later.

so we walk out the doors of the mall and, being the dumbass i am, left my coat in alyse's car. so he seen me shivering and put his arm around me and walked me to the car. as we were walking he goes "i know that we just met today or whatever, but from talking to you, you really seem like a cool girl and i like you." sooo cute. then, just to break the cuteness meter, he asked me if he walked me to the car door if he would get a goodnight kiss. well DUH!!! haha. it was a really, really nice first kiss. very sweet and perfect.

so me and alyse went over to keith's house after to watch movies and on our way back, chris texted alyse and asked her if he did good and she said yeah, that i was happy as could be...he was like "oh that's good cause so am i." then he wrote her something about how he had to cut this kiss short because otherwise he wouldn't have been able to stop kissing me cause it was so good. ahhhhh soooo adorable!!! then he texted me later and called me and we talked for a little bit.

he's gonna call me in a little bit whenever he gets home from work so i am looking forward to that...then tuesday we are suppossed to hang out when i get off work...probably going to the basketball game (if i don't have to work concessions) and i'm going to ask if i can have a bonfire afterward.

so alyse told me he is a really nice guy and that she's known him for a loooong time and never once has he screwed a girl over or been an asshole. which is so good to hear cause i am done with the assholes. apparently the last girlfriend he had screwed him over really bad so he is cautious of getting another girl that will hurt him, which is perfect cause i'm definitely not a girl that will hurt him. i want exactly what he does - someone who isn't going to screw with my emotions and someone that can make me happy.

for once, i wish that something could work out good. let's hope that maybe this is my break. please god let it be...i'm so done with being hurt.

Currently Listening Breakaway By Kelly Clarkson -> gone <- see related

Alright so almost a week without him and I'm doing ok. I miss him terribly, but I'm gonna be ok.

Let's see...Friday night I spent the night with alyse and Connie and had so much fun. Me and alyse are really good now and I couldn't be happier. I've missed her so much, it's crazy. I never realized just how much I depended on her until she wasn't there anymore. So we are slowly, but surely, working everything out and becoming ok again.

Saturday I had to work from 12-5 and i ended up going shopping that night with Alyse and connie and alyse's brother Jake. that was a lot of fun, too. we always have a blast when we hang out.

Sunday I worked from 1-5 and then just bummed around the house the rest of the day.

Ohhh so I definitely gave my number out twice in the past three days haha. Saturday, this really hot kid came through drive thru and (jokingly)  i told alyse we should put our numbers on a napkin and in the bag when i handed it out to him. So we did!!!! and yesterday he actually called me. his name's brian, he's 18, and he goes to henry ford community college. so this weekend (probably friday) we are suppossed to have a double date with me and him and then alyse and his friend. hopefully it will be fun.

Then today, this guy that's in a couple of my classes, Tim, asked me for my number so i gave it to him. who knows with that, but he seems like a nice kid and i'd like to get to know him better.

so i finally gave anthony his hoodie back today. he came and picked me and alyse up from the library after we got done working on a project and we stopped by my house and i got the hoodie. i hardly said a word the entire time i was in the car and i ended up crying as soon as i walked into alyse's house. i don't know why the hell it hurts so bad this time. just like at random moments i will think about him and get so upset. it wasn't like that with corey. i was upset for a while, and then i was done and over it. and with tom i got over it the next day. but for some reason i can't shake anthony off my mind. hopefully it changes.

tomorrow i have to work 7-close and um apparently anthony is suppossed to get his ass beat by this guy max and a couple of his friends cause of all the shit he pulled with me and max's ex-girlfriend, erika. i'm not gonna lie, i'm excited to see a fight. hehe. that's probably bad, but there's a part of me that wants it to happen so bad, just to help me move on a little more.

wednesday i have to go to eastern for my english class. it's some kind of workshop thing. the actual workshop only lasts for like two hours, but we are getting there like two hours early, so we have free time to roam the campus. gotta make sure i look cute for the college boys. hehe.

i don't have to work friday, saturday, or sunday! i am so excited! i have my date probably friday night and then girls night out saturday! yay! this weekend should be really fun! a nice little reminder that i can have fun without a boyfriend. it will be good to get my mind off things.

well that's about it. ohhh-i got an 81 on my physics test. yeah, i know, you're thinking that's not all that good, but considering i usually get like 67s on those tests, it's an amazing grade!

alright dolls, leave some love and have a good week! <333

Currently Listening The High Road By JoJo -> the way you do me <- see related

So he called me yesterday and we broke up. Whatever. I'm done.

Saturday night me and a couple friends are gonna go to a club in Novi and I'm sooo excited. I'm gonna look hot and dance and just forget about everything.

=]

Currently Listening Chroma By Cartel -> honestly <- see related

So things this week have been crazy.

Sunday I broke up with Anthony.

Between Sunday and Thanksgiving, we fought, we made up, and now we're dating again. Which I really hope is the right decision. It's a long a story, but overall I think it was the right choice.

Then Corey came back into town and hung out with me and Alyse and ended up pretty much telling me he wanted to get back together, but I told him I wanted a friendship and nothing more. I just don't have feelings like that for him anymore. I don't know. Everyone thinks I'm stupid for not taking him back and choosing Anthony instead, but it's what is gonna make me happy that counts, right?

Yeah so anyway...how was Thanksgiving? Mine was ok...it was kind of shitty cause it was the first holiday without my grandpa there and it just wasn't the same. The break from school has been nice, though. Definitely don't want to go back, but I guess I have to.

Well I gotta go get ready for work. 4 to freaking close. But Anthony works tonight til close, so that should be good. Hopefully.

Peace. <333